Thank you for stopping by and reading my blog. It truly means a lot to me, as mental illness and my journey through life is something very dear to me. I often use my life experiences to help others, and turning a negative into a tremendous positive makes all the bad worthwhile. Here, I’ll share with you a lot of my life, my past, present and my thoughts about my future. In some way, I hope to help as many people as I can by sharing those aspects of my life.
I have suffered with debilitating anxiety, depression, PTSD, ADHD, OCD, migraines, cluster headaches, interstitial cystitis, asthma…and lots of trauma and grief. I don’t like to “label myself”, but these are the things I deal with on a daily basis. I’ve learned and grown a tremendous lot over the past few years especially, but I look back and realize just how much I have grown and accomplished in my life. I find a great deal of courage and positivity in this. It helps me push forward when I think “I JUST CAN’T DO THIS!!”, or “I CANNOT HANDLE THIS!” While I have not, nor ever been suicidal, thoughts of “I can’t handle my life” do come up. I don’t want to die, I just want to lighten my load, or be able to better problem solve. Eventually, I find my way…most of the time. Other things, I still struggle with. And that’s fine, I clearly just haven’t learned the lesson I need to learn yet. However, I’m impatient and I get angry with myself.
Anyways, that’s the introduction to my story. I decided to write a blog a very long time ago…but I struggled. What do I call it? How much should I share? What if it’s not perfect?
Then, I decided to JUST DO IT! So, I decided to name my blog “Finding Amy”, because that’s still what I’m doing. Every day. What does Amy like? What does Amy NOT like? What are Amy’s boundaries? What are Amy’s strengths and weaknesses? I think you get where I’m going. I lost myself in my illnesses, in my grief and trauma. But, I started to find myself…and I’m starting to really LOVE who I found. The journey has NOT been easy…but it’s MINE, and I’m TRULY grateful that it is mine. I’ve learned a lot about myself, and I will continue to learn until I don’t struggle with the request “Tell me about yourself.” Until I don’t shudder while typing it.
Alright, now you know a little more about me. I find humor helps a lot…and I’m naturally funny…so hopefully you’ll get my (sometimes) weird humor. You’ll get a feel for who I am through my posts, I guess. Isn’t that the whole point of a blog like this? Anyways, thank you again for reading my completely random, unplanned tangle of words. I hope you enjoy what’s to come!
Happy Reading 🙂 -Amy
Finding Amy 